The intellectual craving of depravity that is entirely absent within the grief struck version of my younger self. The underlying urge that creates unnecessary suffering and existential bliss, of whom I have become dependent upon human existence that stems from fear that is riddled within the unknown. Cannibalistic longing for mind and body, pondering the touch of smooth skin peeling layer by layer around the internal cores that lead to destruction and self preservation. As a single kiss can lead to a complex relationship between god and another.